GeRaLdInE

New song placed!

2008-12-24T21:07:00.002+08:00

Yea...bored of that Jay Chou song?? Knew it...replace with xiao gui's song already...
So...just wanna ask..how's life getting on being at home throughout the whole holiday??
Well...i'm just pissed being at home...want go out nobody acccompany me...then nvm...just at home enjoy use com..but found out com was bored...i swam many laps in youtube already...for those who dunnoe...it means that i watched many videos in youtube already...almost viewed all of it...lols..

Hope school starts soon...at least having a reason like schooling i could stay away from home...Home..home is now just a place where i can be by myself for the most 8 hours...doing whatever i want...kind of like a jail...just that i can go out whenever i like...but not all the time..so...i always enjoyed the weekdays i have..because i know during weekends my days are the end...untill monday comes where i can be freed again...so...that's how i spent my holidays...

Winning phrase

2008-12-11T23:20:00.002+08:00

Haha...happy from travelling..i'm back!! Just to let you guys know...haha...penang is fun...so consider this as a travelling place next time when you think of going abroad...Anyway...hmmm...what i did there...erm...eat and shop and riding on car from places to places...that trip was more of a sight-seeing one..haha...though the place was crowded...but it was cool...haha...especially when looking from inside the car...somehow from a little frame you have to look out and it's almost just a glance..because the car is running fast...hmm...but...this short glance could keep those scenes in your mind...you can also lean from this that you should treasure anything that you can see...and not look back after you have gone past it...
And...i found this phrase here today on the net when surfing..somehow it says..."So long as you do not hurt others in what you do and you feel that your way is right, then just do it; someday you will get what you want."yup...so right now..treasure what you have and think about the phrase...haha...strive and achieve what you wanted...no matter failure or success...it's a gain in your mind...it's unforgettable...TRY IT AND YOU WILL KNOW WHAT IT"S LIKE!~

Music!~

2008-12-04T02:44:00.002+08:00

Hey childrens...Here's a word for the day!~

MUSIC!~

Sinking down into the ground...

2008-12-04T02:26:00.002+08:00

Post post...yeah...here to post again...just have no idea to post about anything...my mind is just full of music.Somehow got this idea of posting in a lyric kind of way.Hope it makes my blog more lively?There it goes...

Music is everything that you think it is
maybe a little of it can make you free
Listen to it and it will free you from things
things that are just too confusing

Music has many types rock or pop
maybe some are just not to your liking
Well search for more there is more to come
untill you'll find one that you want

Music is life and it is fun
it makes your life more lively and fun
Music can be anything that sounds like one
Maybe just a clap or tapping sound

Music is my everything
Music is just too fascinating
Music makes you move with rythem
Maybe more than what you expected

So~~Live with music
Oh~~Listen to it
Oh..Wowoh~~Make it come alive
Cause music rocks with your life(your life..life)

Replying taggies..

2008-11-18T23:43:00.002+08:00

You said friends huh?? Could you explain what friends means?? Does it means that they appear like a very close friend to you but behind you they said nasty things about you?? Friends huh?? indeed they are your friends right?? What crap is that?? Even my laptop treats me better than friends...
And...friends could throw you away when you are not needed or do they spread about your secrets and stuffs?? Maybe they did something behind your back and lied to you for things that meant alot to you??
I knew ever since all these things appeared...friends are just nothing...why don't i just do everything on my own?? Afterall...friends backstabs and lied to you...Hence...to me,friends are just people who make use of you when you could help but dump you when they are of help...i know WHO you are...and i remembered it very clearly...this sentence:" Actually i don't really like her...i just don't know why."
Imagine this came out from your friend's mouth when she always said infront of you that she feels that you are her good friend,you won't spread things and always support her.
If you were me, what would you think and feel?

Just to declare...

2008-11-18T23:40:00.002+08:00

I hate people who tag at my tagboard when the names are not given...and....whoever or whatever you are...if you want to tag at my tagboard,kindly enter your name so that at least i got who you are...or if you think your name must be kept in for private, never are you needed here to tag.THANK YOU!

Wind and Rain...

2008-11-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

You all won't know what growing up is like for me...to the rest of u all...growing up is just like eating,sleeping,playing,studying...but to me it was like hell...i just dunnoe what i did in my previous life that i have to lead this kind of life here...
growing up without a father hence my mother has to work like hell and to help her to ease her burden i tried and tried to help...but with that stupid idiotic dumb sister that has no brains to think,my life became even hell-like...just because of my fucking father which i hate the most in the world,any problems my mother faced,she would put her anger on me as my sister is hardly at home...and as a growing child,i was bullied but i didn't even dared to speak a word about anything to anyone...hence the quiet me u all see...plus the problems faced in school...i tried to cheer up but it wasn't that easy said than done...
now u all know why i don't post...because i find it a nuisance to type it out..i rather keep it within me okay...although i seem happy everyday but at night you will see a different me...but don't bother to try to know me now..because pride is my priority so i will hide myself from anyone from trying to get close to me...don't bother to know me now...it's too late ...i wondered why i can't meet such a person when i was younger and needed help...i just hated this world and myself and everyone...even you who is reading now...don't ask me why i hate you because this is what the environment had force me into...

Stop crapping!!!

2008-11-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

Ya..i know all of you are replying on the previous few post but anyway you all won't understand...and ah...dun interupt or ask here ask there regarding me and czm le...it's our matter...so ignore la...erm erm...i'm now fine just to let u all know...
Well you all just don't get the picture...i don't understand what is between us...so how would u all know...so don't go and blame him or stuffs like that anymore okay??
you all dunnoe one la...since young i have no one to care for me...so i am like trash...no father,no confidant...and between me and my family members we aren't that close...well i am all alone okay...hence the geraldine u all see now..all these were what that made me what i am today...i have no one to blame for but just myself...so no matter whatever happens now i have to bear with it untill i grow up...i swear when i grow up i won't be like what i am now cus i simply hate whoever i am now and my father and sister and everyone...my thinking just tells me that it is the evironment that caused me to be like that okay..so don't question anyone now and don't come up with any doubts...that's all...just ignore...okay...byebye.

The pain in me...

2008-11-14T16:48:00.002+08:00

Thoughts and memories flashed past me...i remembered of the time when we first knew each other...we later on got along and we always sided with you eventhough others blamed us for being biased...i don't know what has got into me...i just can't help it...
Yesterday,the last night we have at the chalet,i woke up very early...i was thinking continuously...i did not have the courage to talk to you anymore...i knew you would just reply me in a word or two...surely not more than a sentence...then i realised i wasn't as important as the others to you.I wanted to apologise to you...."i'm sorry that i can't bring you laughter.go to her...she's the one that can make you smile and laugh like nothing ever is worried"

Trust is the next thing...i felt like i was just a bullshit compared to all of you..hanging out with you guys was too much a stress to me...i wanted to leave but i can't...i knew i wasn't needed around but that was the only way to make me feel better...
The only thing i could do now is to wish the person that i liked and loved once to be happy always...let me be the one to shoulder the pain and the laughter and fun for you to take on...

The look in your eyes tells me so..

2008-11-14T16:40:00.002+08:00

During the first night of the chalet,i did not sleep a wink...i wanted to get those memories in my mind...and i managed to do so...that night was a hard day for me...all of you did slept for a moment...but i struggled not to...easily..the night passed...

That night you seemed so tired...with red bloodshot eyes...i wanted to have a chat with you to keep you awake and feeling less bored...i said something to you and when you replied me...i look into your eyes and i realised that i don't seem like i was a friend...instead,just a very very ordinary friend...one that you would just say hi to when we meet in the streets or maybe those that you would try to avoid from..

That night was my worst day...i remembered when most of you were sleeping...i watched the television quietly and did not spoke a word...that time i was struggling with my thoughts...i knew i had lost you...as a friend....i became not a friend anymore...

I wished there was a miracle..

2008-11-14T16:31:00.002+08:00

Today was the day after the class chalet...though last night i went home feeling very exhausted and tired but i can't fall asleep...many moments of us together came to my mind...this feeling had never appeared before...i knew i didn't liked this class as much as i do in the past...but i knew i never hated it too...yes maybe some classmates but definitely not all...

Was online the whole day...not all was online...but when i took a glance through the personel message...the scenes came back to me...i wished that we do not have to separate...through hard times and laughter we went together...the scenes now can't be removed...

But life is a cycle...it has to go on...i just have to hang on and move on no matter what it is...if there was a miracle....this wouldn't get to this stage...

So Busy!~~

2008-11-10T21:03:00.002+08:00

Sorry to all for not posting for the past few days.It is because that i am very busy...busy with our class chalet and looking for job and going out for job interviews.SORRY SORRY SORRY!

Adding on to that,i won't post for the nest few days too...got too much things to handle...one of my family member passed away...so will be busy....so sad....i wan to cry...my da yi po die...haiz...

But i am also very happy as the chalet day is tomorrow and i am staying overnight...grrr....anyways...i have to go now...AND...
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JAY CHOU'S MOVIE: SECRET,KUNGFU DUNK AND INITIAL D ROCKS!~

High-ing here!

2008-11-05T18:00:00.002+08:00

Woots!~ Love my blog yeah...happy happy...now need relink and link alot people le....if you guys sees this please tag ur link for me again..lol...

today nothing much happened except it was a busy day in the morning...surfing the net for jobs and calling but it wasn't a great reply that i got back....but nvm...i got time...can wait...but hope can get it soon...i wan save money!!!

And and...all i did today was msn-ing and chatting and listening to jay's songs...how great that was...so happy to have this freedom!!!Woo!~ But after 6,it will be a sad day...cus my mum coming back...diaos...Anyways,2h people must remember go the class chalet hor....dun forget!!!~

And ...soory to my friends for having the jay chou talk these days...all about jay chou bore you out huh? HEHE...hope u all dun mind...cus he rocks and i can't stop chatting about him...

Lastly,those who likes him can go to WWW.JAY2U.COM go see see!~

Now i have to go to wash that pile of smelly dirty school shoes..lol..haha...byebye...need go wash it before my mum comes back..lol...TATA..

Bloggin's Back!~

2008-11-04T23:01:00.002+08:00

Hey all...my blog is back alive though this is the only post.And firstly i want to thank Jia Lyn for helping me with the blog renewing thing.

Now,it's a brand new blog...hope it won't die again...guess not...after changing the blogskin to my idol haha....anyway...the song in my blog was one of my favourite from Jay Chou.Hope you guys will enjoy it.But sorry to the malays because it's a chinese song...well i just dun fancy english songs.haha...not trying to be biased over anything...that's just who i am.

Ohya...just to make my blog more lively...it's gonna be medialised...means next time i try to post pictures...if not so bored right??haha...i shall end it here for now...

Stay Tune For The Next Post!~

Boring day

2008-08-24T12:41:00.002+08:00

Hello all...i am back to post again...But read this only if you are free...If you are busy right now, please exit this window now...as what i am going to say will be boring...or maybe there is nothing to say.
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I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT EXCEPT THAT I AM BUSY NOW...SO...BYEBYE ALL..

Before i go..

2008-08-19T19:30:00.002+08:00

Hey all again...before i go i have something to add on...just to make more post there in my blog,i guess i have to renew my blog again...so...constructing will take place tomorrow afternoon which is 20th of august from 3.30pm onwards untill somehow later...after done i will announce in my msn...Just to recap,

Constructing of my blog will take place on 20th August 2008 from 3.30pm onwards!

After exam day

2008-08-19T19:21:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone...it has been long since my last post and yea...exam has already past and today is the second week of the after-exam.
So are you guys thinking that i am going to post about exams? Possibly but NO. ha ha...i am going to post about today...whoa
Yesterday was badminton training day and all i did was train and train...so tired after the training and got up next morning being tired and aching all over...but it was great because badminton is fun and training is what we should do now since the competition is coming...
Oh ya...results are back and i found out that i had achieved 2 things...firstly, academically i feel that i did quite well,to me maybe acceptable but of course there is still room for improvements..well...hopefully...secondly is that i managed to talk to him!!! Yay!! wondering who he is? he is oliver...why an achievement huh? Because i does not talk to him in the past..just treating him like a nobody...but now at least like a friend...
Okay...so now i am going to say...hmm...I DON'T KNOW! now i am watching Tv and posting don't know what is it...erm...maybe i'll end here first...byebye
Geraldine.

Studies thingy

2008-07-31T19:30:00.002+08:00

Today we had this freaking streaming talk on what subjects to take for next year....after listening to the talk,i felt very confused....confused and fretting over what subjects to take...till now,i have not come to any conclusion yet...i don't even know what i want..probably i will consider now and decide after the exam...afterall,it all depends on your result huh...haiz...signing off...byebye

Quiz repayment

2008-07-19T19:12:00.002+08:00

Hey all...I've decided to post some Q&A stuffs here...questioned by me and answered by me too...lol?Since I've owed,got GST one right??So instead of 20,I'll do 25 questions.Come on!Let's go!~

1) If i happened to pick up a thousand dollars,what would i do with it?
Give it to the police luh...Zzz...
2) What do i like to do?
I like to do anything,more to computer games though...as long as I'm alone
3) What do i hate?
I hate noise and anyone that bothers me.
4) What is my last regret about?
Breaking up with my ex boyfriend.
5) How is my relationship with my family?
Bad...in my perspective...many arguments
6) Who i like?
Someone larhs...but I'm gonna give it up
7) What am i wishing on a wishing star?
Hope i can grow up quickly.
8) What is my goal in life?
Getting rid of irritating people
9) What is my personality like?
Someone who likes quietness
10) How do i describe myself?
Emo at times,noisy sometimes but quiet if no one talk to me
11) What do i want?
Everyone in the world to leave me alone
12) What is my ambition?
Currently a celebrity.
13) What do i hope to turn back?
Him to love me.
14) 5 descriptions that i want my friends to be like.
Someone who is friendly,cheerful,cute,trustworthy and do not care much about me.
15) What will i do if i cannot stand a person's irritation?
Bash that person up...be it girl or boy.
16) Is 5566 my idol?
Yes...especially wang renfu...and forever it will be till i forget about them...
17) Do i still like kelvin?
Yes now but not going to be anymore..It's the end.
18) Dreamguy?
Caring,able to bring me happiness,money not so...main thing is understand me.
19) Why i like 5566?
I feel that they are great singers+they are the exact people i want to learn from.They are the ones who make who i am now...they are my idol and so i grow up making them my goal.
20) How to make me cry?
Never.I will never cry in front of anyone.Can say that i care alot about my pride.
21) Why sometimes i so emo?
Erm..some reasons there...feeling unwell,thinking of something/a guy,feel like keeping quiet.
22) Why do i have so many secrets?
Sometimes,keeping quiet with all the troubles within myself,at times,there is a need to pour out some...don't worry,when i decided to pour out which,it means i don't mind letting everyoe know about it.
23) How i tolerate sin yee?
Sometimes just lend her a ear to speak to...bash her up if she irritates u,run away or scold her den walk away.
24) What do i wish for?
Anything i say in my blog,no one will ask me...treat it like you don't know.
25) What else do i want to say?
My very own pledge: "I,Geraldine goh,swear to study hard from now on and have a brighter future."
Hopefully one day there is a scene where my mum came to the airport to fetch me when i return from studying in USA.I will also aim to work very hard for money so that life will not be as bad as now.Also,there should be no more arguments between my sister and mother when i have the huge sum of money,money will shut them up right?I wish that all my hard work will pay to the happiness and peace i have in the future.And lastly,a great family without arguments and children not to have blogs,because to me,blog = something to say out like = unhappiness = not happy.I WANT EVERYONE TO BE HAPPY!EVEN MY OWNSELF!~

No title

2008-07-11T19:30:00.002+08:00

Today was boring....morning went to school...had science lesson...won a game...next the boring history and literature...after that recess then mother tongue and math...after school went to caltex buy food eat...den go back school do library duty....slack around...did not really do my duty....went to AVA room watch some of my friends performing because tomorrow is their competition...after that go home...feel sad dunnoe why....sometimes will cry for no particular reason....super sad....unhappy...boring...ah....i don't know why i became liddat...it is a great change in me since my primary school times....i very vexed lah...don't feel like talking now...byebye

Relieving my pain

2008-07-04T19:16:00.002+08:00

this is the day where i first met you
i knew you since then but not you
i can't forget the past even with you here
the sights are etched in my heart

i can't forget the times we were together
being with you was memorable
things changed since then
we broke up so did my heart

till now i met new friend
that's when i forgot about you
but at times the scenes came back to me
how i wish i could forget the unhappy moments

he is handsome but not to others
i feel that he is but others declined
it's alright but still i'm not happy
it seems like i've lost the whole world

no one like you since last cared for me
no one there by my side
nobody to stand by me
i'm all alone in this whole world

My friend or not a friend

2008-07-04T19:08:00.002+08:00

He is someone i like.But there's nothing i can do to help him open up his heart.He has only himself to help himself.He has to forget the past.It's hurtful to see him always putting a frown on his face.....causing me to feel sad too....i hope he can pull himself up again and be like his oldest self....happy all the time without all the worries now....yeah....that's the thing i hate about growing up....there's a lot to worry about and vexed about...I remembered someone told me a short s tory and that is:

Like cutting onions,turn your eyes away from them to prevent crying,hence turn yourself away to prevent yourself from crying or being sad about that issue.SO...TURN AWAY TO REJECT SADNESS!

but when the thing came to you...i can't do it...can you?

Who?

2008-05-28T10:20:00.002+08:00

Omg...i realise there is a problem in me..it's about who.
i can't seem to 4get about him...help...but fatefully...i found out that my good friend is doing well recently..and he is getting more sauve.woah...
Oh yah....i'll give a brief introduce to my good male friends...
Syafiq (Tampines North primary)
Hafiz (Tampines North primary)
Jie-Ren (Gongshang primary)
Aloysius ( Gongshang primary)
Dewey ( Gongshang primary )

Well....to me...being in springfield is like a nowhere to me...it's basically nothing...friends yes...maybe just a little...but in my perspectives...i feel that there is no friends.NOTHING!
I know that i dun feel happy in the school...neither do i have the feeling of strong friendship like being in my primary school...if any of you happen to see my photos when i wass younger,you will see that i was much more happier in the past than i am now..

What can i do?

2008-05-28T10:15:00.002+08:00

Hi all...i know all of you are wondering why i did not post anything these few days...well...it is because i have lots of things to say but i can't say it out.All the problems are within me including family,classmates and everyone around me.Someone will sure be hurt if i really say it out so i rather keep the problems to myself than to speak to someone.Since nobody is going to isten anyway...i guuess...yah...just feel rather down these few days but i dunnoe why...maybe it's some kind of growing up just like anyone of you...

Here's me

2008-05-18T21:55:00.002+08:00

I like hong kong dramas the most as their storyline is more enjoyable...unlike korean dramas,the storyline are more of the same...it's just so bored to watch it as the drama was just so predictable...i love dramas that are more to investigation...possibly some drama shows about police,pilot,doctor....err...some other's maybe...they are more to action videos.Well,i like romance type of videos from taiwan because the characters are normally dating and their procedure are enjoying.Well,other than playing computer games,watching dramas are also my hobby.
Right now i can state some few drama shows that i like...well...maybe i post some other day.It's not the right time to post...although i'm using my mother's laptop but the time is not right.My mother and sister is quarrelling now...so that's all for now...got to go before a bomb strikes on me...so...BYE BYE.

No more dead blog!

2008-05-18T21:38:00.002+08:00

yeah...guys...i'm back again to post...glad to announce that i will not let my blog die again...because i don't want to renew my blog again...it takes a long time and effort yea..so...haha...here's more about me.
My idols are 5566 for taiwan and in hong kong,there are quite a number...they are Raymond Lam,Bosco Wong,Ron Ng,Kevin Cheng and Moses Chan.I like 5566 because i like their singing...especially Wang Renfu from 5566,he has a great vocal...wahaha...well...those idols of mine from hong kong are my favourites as i find them a great actor.
Many people will wonder what i will do during my free time.So...what do i do?Well...i always spend my time by watching Tv,Cd's or watching drama series online.That's what i enjoy doing anyway.Actually,my idols are changing almost all the time...but recently,maybe due to the growth mentally,i'm more restricted to those mentioned above.
What else can i say now?Omg,i have no idea what to say now...i know there are some...er...ya...family.
I have my mother,elder sister.Yes...i don't really like my sis...from primary six onwards,i began to ignore her...well...our relationship wasn't any good either.Hmm....now,i dun really want to speak much about family...it's kind of a private matter.Let's change a topic.Maybe i'll type it in a new post while i go and glance through on the previous post so that i know what to say...

All about me

2008-05-16T20:01:00.000+08:00

From all the request from the "public", i 'm going to post something.Now,i decided to post...but what should i post about?Myself! Since i feel that none of you all really understands me...here's everything about myself.

First,i don't really like to speak english and chinese...i prefer cantonese and taiwan language(taiyu)...but i am not born in Hong Kong,neither in Taiwan...but being able to understand the language is already very satisfying.Probably i know how to speak a little but it's not that accurate...seems kind of weird.But ,it's alright...like the usual,practise makes perfect.
Secondly,my life is full of sports and games.Badminton,basketball,cycling,almost all sports are to my liking,everything,just excluding swimming as i don't know how to swim.Yeah...i hate to swim anyway...Other than sports,music is also something i like a lot...music is like a relaxation to me...i like music,especially music in cantonese and tai yu.I hate rock musics...because i find it a nuisence as it's always very noisy...well in my aspects...unless they are fast but able to hear the lyrics clearly.
Thirdly,i post in another day...i know it would be boring to read a super long post...but if you are interested,stay and wait for more information one me...haha.