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Friday, November 14, 2008 @ 4:48 PM
The pain in me... Thoughts and memories flashed past me...i remembered of the time when we first knew each other...we later on got along and we always sided with you eventhough others blamed us for being biased...i don't know what has got into me...i just can't help it... Yesterday,the last night we have at the chalet,i woke up very early...i was thinking continuously...i did not have the courage to talk to you anymore...i knew you would just reply me in a word or two...surely not more than a sentence...then i realised i wasn't as important as the others to you.I wanted to apologise to you...."i'm sorry that i can't bring you laughter.go to her...she's the one that can make you smile and laugh like nothing ever is worried" Trust is the next thing...i felt like i was just a bullshit compared to all of you..hanging out with you guys was too much a stress to me...i wanted to leave but i can't...i knew i wasn't needed around but that was the only way to make me feel better... The only thing i could do now is to wish the person that i liked and loved once to be happy always...let me be the one to shoulder the pain and the laughter and fun for you to take on... |